Who am I?
I’m a coach,
I’m a mother,
I’m a partner,
And above all…
I am a SURVIVOR.
I believe we are all stronger than we know, we are more powerful than we can imagine and we should never feel alone.
Having said that, I can also be honest enough with you to tell you that I have not always felt strong or powerful and I have spent many years feeling very alone. In my previous life I spent an entire decade in what felt like a hole that continued to get deeper and deeper with no ropes being thrown to save me.
I let a narcissistic, abusive man breed codependency and toxicity in me. I gave an unstable and unpredictable man power over me that he never earned or deserved.
In that 10 year period I moved 8 times. I buried my troubles in alcohol, drugs as well as fitness (what a combination right?). I slept very little. I was isolated from friends, family and otherwise. And I became a puppet to a man that never had my best interest at heart.
It was at about year 9 that my body could no longer keep up with my fight or flight state. Small ailments began to turn into debilitating issues. I began to lose my hair, I had my first panic attack, I was absolutely exhausted at all times and the final straw was that I was diagnosed with breast cancer at 48 years old.
One day, I decided that enough was ENOUGH!
I packed my bags for a week and flew myself across the country to be picked up by and hosted by a complete stranger. This was absolutely terrifying!
I began to educate myself, I read everything I could get my hands on about the cycle of abuse, I continued my own personal therapy, I began to take courses, listen to podcasts and journal.
I began to heal out loud.
I began to share my story of abuse, my story of escape and my story of healing.
And through it all… I began realize that I was in fact not alone.
